Contentment

Today, this topic caused a certain dear friend distress.  And I must say that I was insensitive to her feelings. 

Honestly,  I myself sometimes find it hard to be contented with life. Each time someone talks about buying material stuff, I feel envious of what they own. And I'm thinking to myself, lucky people. They say, 'I'm sure you can afford to buy.' Yep, if I eat air everyday.  So lusting for it is a no go for me. I can't even afford to own a CC.

Yes, I'm upset that I made her upset but I'm also upset that I'm unable to participate in one of those convos. I have totally no understanding or whatsoever about bags, cars etc. I'm quite concern that I might end up not being able to give my child the best in the future. 

Ok. I'm going to cry. Contentment is subjective.  I should be happy with what I have right? Sigh... Humans - we always aim to have better stuff.

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Simplicity

I love acoustic songs. The simplicity of the song somehow speaks more than the usual. 

In the still moment, there I find my peace. There I find my rest. :) 

Forever 21

I celebrated my Forever 21 birthday yesterday. Yes, I have officially reached the stage of ultimate denial that I'm growing older year after year. Heart is aching terribly at how old I'm growing. Age is not just a number to women after a certain stage.

So anyway, no surprises this year for me but at least I got to spend time with my ever loving future husband. This will be our last year celebrating my birthday in my "single but attached" status.  Looking forward to what the future holds for us...

We went to S.E.A. and I think we get our dress sense from fishes. They have so many patterns and colours. Extremely vibrant and beautiful. Btw, I hate fish. They smell terrible but it's ok to stare at them especially those really nice coloured ones. 

Breakfast at Good Morning Nanyang Cafe (known for their toast bread)

 

Beautiful isn't it? God has so much creativity. I need to draw inspiration from Him. Oh, and I watched the little minions yesterday too. Quite a funny show but I definitely preferred the first one and you know, that's what family is all about isn't it? Loving, laughing together, keeping a lookout for each other... Interesting show with a good storyline I must say.

I must be on a blogging roll... hahaha... haven't blogged so much in ages.

Life

Life is fragile. There are so many uncertainties that sometimes, it takes a lot of courage and faith to face what just might come tomorrow.

Today, my dear friend is still facing a situation and there's no security in what the future holds. Today, my mum is heading to the hospital for a checkup for an internal bleeding. Who knows whether it will be a simple or a complicated case? There lies in my heart the fear of losing another that is so close and precious to me.

So what is life is to me? I remember that someone once shared that they did this exercise where the pretended that the person was dead and they had to say something about the person at his grave. What will people say about me? Have I given my best to this life that I'm living for? Have I done what God has told me to do?

I really don't know about tomorrow. I don't know about the future. We can only plan but who knows what will happen next.

Reflection:~ Faith in uncertainties. Courage in times of fear.

Unconditional Love

A friend has been going through a tough time lately. It brings tears and an aching heart just thinking about it. Here I am about to celebrate a lifetime together with Ben in a year and there she is crying her heart out.

What to do? What to say?

I admire how strong she has been and have no understanding why she isn't getting angry. But, as I stand in her shoes, I can sense her love for him and her longing to work things out with him. Sadly, it's not being reciprocated yet. Her unconditional love for him is just something that brings a smile to my face yet there's so much sadness about it.

I sent her this song a while back and am hoping that she carry to have faith in the One who understands and knows her heartache. The One who will give her the strength and courage to face whatever situations that will come.

No matter what happens my dear friend, we love you and will always stand by you.