I had a dream this morning as I was about to wake up. In my dream, I was filled with jealousy, anger and fakeness. I felt so fake towards this person whom I have feelings of unhappiness towards. They say that dreams reflect a person's heart. So is that it?
Well, that is not important. Well, at least not the content of my dream. The feelings that were being portrayed in my dreams are more important to me. Feelings of unhappiness towards the person. Yup... There are some. And I can say that I have cast a judgemental statement towards the person which is not right. Whatever it is, it is in God's hands.
So I was led to pray for myself. My prayer was from Ps 51:10-12 and Philippians 4:8
"Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Your presence, And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation. And uphold me with Your generous Spirit."
"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever t things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtye and if there is anything praiseworthy-meditate on these things."
Yup. I was led to pray that God will indeed feel my mind with the good things of the person. As humans, once somebody does something which we don't like, we tend to look at the person differently.
I was praying and asking God to teach me to love. Sometimes when you work on something, the devil tries to lure you away by putting distractions and unwanted thoughts. Someone said to me, "As realtionships are the most fragile thing in life, the devil will attack it." And I think it is true. Praise the Lord for the sword of the Spirit which assures me of a lot of things.
I pray that God will mend this relationship of mine and bring thoughts to my mind which are pleasing to Him.
