I remember saying that I need to pick up on my spiritual walk. Well, I've been trying and I realized what I have been missing, worshipping. Sometimes, we just do and do and do, serve and serve and serve but all these boil down to??? It just gets really tiring. I can officially say that my cup has run dry and now I want my cup to be filled again. I cannot take it anymore. I seem to be doing things aimlessly and just running away, thinking that maybe it is nothing.
As I was listening to a song, it brought me to Luke 7:36-39, Jesus anointed by a Sinful Woman. The woman poured her precious perfume when it can be sold to give herself money. I feel that I've been selfish and thinking that whatever I am doing is giving back to the Lord. Let me tell you, I don't think I have been giving anything precious AT ALL. NOTHING... ZERO... God wants my time alone with Him. My precious time, not just serving aimlessly, before I carry on with anything else. I really need that time, hence I won't be attending youth service tomorrow. I can't lead worship with such dryness.
Lord, I have nothing to offer to You except myself and I know more than anything else, I need to give that certain time of the day to You. I'm really feeling dry and help me to feel my cup again, fill my alabaster jar and let me just weep at Your feet and just be in Your presence.
