I'm sitting at home having stomach cramps and feeling super tired from everything that was happening.
The conference I attended the last two days was good. I feel more in tuned with the BTJ vision now. But... it was tiring. The conference was just too long. It was from 9am to 10pm everyday. The amazing thing is that I feel like sleeping when the people talk but when they don't talk, I feel wide awake. It's such a wonder.
Anyway, I'm still feeling terribly upset about certain stuff. You know how people can just say things to another person without thinking. It's just amazing lor. They truly never know how much hurt it can cost another person. Even though they do mean it out of good intention but still, do you think I am that kind of person in the first place? Please lar, open your eyes and observe.
It's in times like this when you find it really hard to love the impossible. I feel like crying because, it just hurts. It angers me because I haven't done anything at all to cause you any harm or what. I haven't said anything to anyone that you are a bad person. Come on lor, we are Christians lar. Please act the way you should be acting. But then again, if I say it this way, I'm judging.
Dear Lord, please help me to look beyond such situations and help me to realize that my problem is not too big. In the first place, there are people out there who needs help more than I do and just selfishly thinking about my own problem isn't going to solve my problem. It's just something which I have to entrust into Your hands knowing that God, You will take it all away. So Lord, help me to refocus on the cross and recognize that Lord, You are in control and help me to learn to love others the way you do. Help me to see the things the way you do. Help me Lord, focus on loving others and giving to others for that's what You have called us to do. It's all about You Jesus. It's all about You.
